I had originally planned on writing about my fast each day, or every other day, but I haven’t been able to. I started fasting last Sunday. I am fasting for several reasons, but to each his own, right? Here are the highlights from this past week.
Travis is totally supportive even though he thinks it is crazy. Everything he eats he has to come in and tell me how good it is! I think it’s funny though. And one of those reasons I am fasting is to learn self discipline. I need him to taunt me so I can learn to control myself. That food will be there for me later when I am actually hungry. He was eating a hot dog and I totally wanted to rip it out of his hands…but I have NEVER liked hot dogs, that’s how it goes the first few days of a fast. Everything sounds so good. Even though I am full, I am still not getting that satisfaction from a fattening meal or a salty snack.
So, day one, of course, was really difficult. I felt like I was dying. Ok, not really, but I was miserable. Especially when you drive past a McDonald’s. And McDonald’s isn’t even a favorite fast food joint of mine. Just like I said before, you crave weird things. I wanted peanut butter, I remember, and I almost got into the pantry and ate the whole jar. But before I cheat on my fast I need to remember why I am doing this. I can’t just give in to myself.
Self discipline is not the only reason I am doing this. It’s also to “cleanse” and feel better. The first couple of days were hard, and going to work and smelling everyone’s lunches made it all the more difficult. But now that I am past that hump I feel great! Yesterday I had so much energy and I was so happy. Not being bogged down by all of those preservatives and fattening foods is really an eye opener. Just after a few days of fasting and only drinking raw juices or green tea makes you realize how much crap food manufacturers put in your meals. You think “Was I really tired all of that time from food?” Something that is supposed to bring you energy, something that is necessary to live is also slowing you down. Well, it’s not just that; it’s the type of food we are eating.
I am not going to kill myself, I know my limits. When I do need to eat I have raw vegetables. Broccoli and spinach leaves are my favorite. And now, all I need is a handful of some green vegetable and I feel awesome. I feel full if I mix that with tea and am fully energized again. Also, I have been making my own fruit juice to drink. It is satisfying, of course I would love to grill up some chicken, but the fruit juice will do.
Today, the 5th day of my fast, I still feel amazing. So far today I drank a metric shit ton of water, I had a cup of green tea in the morning and later today I might have some raw green beans for dinner if I feel hungry. I can see the color coming back to my face, the bloating is long gone, even though I probably have a lot more water weight. I woke up early in the morning on my own, something I never do, and I still have plenty of energy for the rest of the day. For Travis’ lunch, he packed a sandwich and I usually sneak a bite of it, but I really wasn’t craving it. I opened the pantry to get my green tea and saw the Doritos and they really did not sound good to me. Could this really be working? By feeling happier from bits of raw veggies and fruits am I curving my appetite to crave something a little healthier?
I know that once I am finished fasting my body will not automatically crave healthy things, I will need to work on it. By reaping the benefits of eating healthy now, I will remember how great it felt when I was fasting and how crappy I felt when I was eating whatever I wanted. Once I am no longer fasting I will not be a health freak, but I will be more careful and will have a more balanced diet. I am really proud of myself, I am glad I proved that I can do this…for five days at least.